Monday

Depression Will Ruin Your Dating Skills





Losing Control


I like many people have experienced the dark side of depression and for those who haven’t tried it, it sucks. I chose that last word because it clearly described what happened to me. It was like my whole life was taken out of my control and the only thing that remained was this horrible feeling that alien forces were taking over the human race and I was next on the list to be consumed and it scared the hell out of me. I was in so much fear that I tried to kill myself. Eventually unknown to myself I called the police and asked for help. They strongly suggested I sign myself into a rehab place for observation. I vaguely recall signing something.

Had to Work My Way Back to Live

That was then and here I am today. Much emotional pain has passed thru my brain and body since then. Pills, therapy and positive thinking for the most part kept the wheels on the wagon for me. But nothing at this point kept me safe from my haunting feelings that drifted in and out of my mind. The day I decided to be ok, is the day things got better for me. I guess I was just sick and tired of living the way I was. It seemed like I never really felt good. It was like a dark cloud was lingering over my head and I couldn’t chase it away.

I'm Sick of living Like This

But then I remembered saying to myself, enough is enough and then I instantly felt better. Since then I have used this forcefulness with myself and it continues to work for me.

Your Mind Will Control if You Don't

I think I was so into my depression that it overwhelmed me and I let it control my life. I honestly believe that the mind is easily persuaded to feel a certain way if we the person living in the brain doesn’t continue to maintain control. Its like your computer if you don’t make decisions your computer in many cases will make it for you and may produce results your not looking for. Were the only person living in our mind and you have the ability to control how you feel. If on the other hand you start letting your mind make decisions for you, because you feel your losing your grip on your sanity. That’s a signal that you might be slipping into the world of dark shadows and if your not careful the people in the white jackets will be helping you eat your food with a spoon that isn’t being controlled by you.

Finding Love Requires Emotional Wellness

Had I not fixed myself emotionally dating would have been a negative thing and finding love like I have would have been out of the question. So take it from an X depressed person, heal your unhappy feelings so love can mate with you. I wish you good date hunting.

Take it from one who knows. Its better to keep your sanity, rather then losing it and trying to get it back. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.


Don L. Terrill

photo by Mike Babcock